I used to think no matter how much I prayed, read the bible, or went to church God doesn’t hear my prayers. Why would He? I’m a sinner. I sin because I am selfish. Its all about my desires and happiness. I rather do what makes me feel good even if it disappoints God. I was living a sinful life and didn’t care about the consequences. It wasn’t until after I sinned that I would start to feel guilty. I started to feel that I have disappointed God so much I felt unworthy to Him. Every time I would go through something or struggle with my faith, I wanted to pray but couldn’t, why would God here my prayers? He heard my prayers before, of me begging for forgiveness, promising to do better, only to turn right back around and sin again. Why would this time be different? Why would God want to continue to forgive someone like me for the same sin over and over? I was tired of feeling this way and desperately needed Christ in my life.
I have gone through high and lows in my life. My way of thinking was messed up. I started to believe whenever I turned to God in a time of need, He would ignore my prayers. That was never the case. Even when I was wrong and in the middle of my sin God could have strike me dead then, but He didn’t, instead God never left my side. He continues to be loyal to me despite how I behaved. I don’t want to take His love for granted. I had to understand the things that happened in my life had to happen for me to learn my lesson and change my sinful ways. I look back on my behavior and I am ashamed and embarrassed as a Christian woman. I thank God for the consequences, He saved me from myself.
God never said life would be easy. We all go through pain. It doesn’t matter whether you believe in God or not no one escapes from pain and problems. When you walk with God you must take it one day at a time. Change will not happen overnight. It may seem like God is not answering your prayers, you must trust His timing. Before He changes your situation, He is trying to change you. There is a lesson behind everything you go through. You may not see or understand it, but God does and that’s all that matters. Trust and believe GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS. Think about the times God has showed up and showed out. Don’t let your burdens have you lose faith in God. Never give up on Him because He has never given up on you. Continue to pray and work on being a better Christian. You will fall along the way, God didn’t send His only son to die on the cross for you to stay on the ground. Stop being hard on yourself, God didn’t bring you this far to bring you this far. Trust His process.
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