Am I the only one?
Am I the only one that feels like my ex doesn’t miss me?
Am I the only one that doesn’t know why we broke up?
Am I the only one that wants to pick up the phone and call him?
Am I the only one that wants to know if he is dating someone else?
Am I the only one that can’t get over him?
Am I the only one that cries myself to sleep?
Am I the only one that can’t listen to certain songs because they remind me of him?
Am I the only one that feels so stupid for giving my all into this relationship?
Am I the only one that feels like I gave my love to the wrong man?
Am I the only one that feels used and betrayed by the one person I thought would never do this to me?
Am I the only one that feels like I need a therapist because I just can’t get over this breakup???
Am I the only one that feels like all men play games?
Am I the only one that wants to beg for him to take me back?
Am I the only one that no matter what I do I can’t stop thinking about him?
Am I the only one that every time the phone rings or I get a text message I’m hoping it’s him?
Am I the only one that feels this way about a man I loved so much?
Am I the only one that feels this way?
Do you ever feel like you’re the only one in the world going through a breakup? It seems like everywhere you go everyone else is in a relationship. All your friends, siblings, and co-workers are all in happy relationships and tell you what they did on the weekend and vacations their going to take and it absolutely pains you to hear their stories because you don’t have anyone or your dealing with a break up at that moment. I know on Mondays when I would be at work I would have coworkers ask me how my weekend was and then they would start telling me about their weekend and what they did with their boyfriends and what movie they saw or what restaurant they went to. Not that I was jealous but I didn’t want to hear what they did with their boyfriend because I had just got dumped by mines and we didn’t end on good term. I was blindsided by the breakup and I was beyond heartbroken. I couldn’t eat or sleep, I was always in a depressive mood, cry myself to sleep because all I wanted from him was answers but instead he started to ignore me. I don’t know about you but when the only person in the world that you want attention from starts to ignore you that’s painful. I started to lose it I was depressed every day, crying like a baby, never having an appetite, didn’t want to go out, and was always in a bad mood. This breakup was taking over my life! I felt like I was the only person on this earth that was experiencing these types of feelings and there was no one I could talk too. I have lots of friends on Facebook and lots of contacts in my phone but I still couldn’t call one of them. This was a problem I was letting this breakup define me, takeover my happiness, and bring down my self-esteem.
Well I had enough! Do you hear me? ENOUGH! While I’m sitting at home crying over him do you think he is doing the same? NO! Do you think he is missing meals or losing sleep over me? NO! Do you think he is going out with friends having a good ole time? YES! And please believe he is out and dating other females too! So, I got myself out of my depressive state and said I will not let this breakup ruin me. Life is too short and even though it hurts I know that God sees my tears and hears my prayers. Everything happens for a reason you may not see it right now because of what you’re going through but know that God has something better for you. Some of us pray for a good man and when God tries to tell you or show, you ignore the signs. Stop trying to mold a man into what you want him to be. Stop wishing and hoping that if you stay with him he will change and see your his ride or die chick. That no longer works sorry. Put your faith and trust in God I promise you he will bless you with the man of your dreams you just have to be patient. (James 5:7-11) Yes it will hurt for a while, you will miss him like crazy, you will want him to call but don’t stop your life waiting for the impossible. Do things that make you happy whether its hanging out with friends, taking a vacation, shopping, working out, or trying something new. Focus on you and your goals and let God take care of the rest!