Can the years stop going by so fast lol? The year 2017 came and went. I can’t believe it’s already 2018!!! I still need more time to accomplish my goals. Last year I told myself I was going to start over, 2017 was going to be my year. I made soooooo many promises. Here are a few of the promises I made, I wanted to be a better Christian, have a positive attitude, STOP COMPLAINING AND COMPARING, not to bring any toxic people, and turn goals into reality. I felt good. Inspired. And ready to start the new year. I was so determined. But umm, yea about that. I think I accomplished two maybe three of my promises. Let me explain why. I made the mistake of bringing 2016 problems into 2017. I started complaining about work, comparing myself to other people, I brought in toxic friends, and the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF ALL I got in contact with my ex. I started off the year wrong. If you want 2018 to be your year make sure you don’t bring any issues, problems, toxic friends, negativity, and definitely your ex in the new year. If you want to start fresh with a positive Christian attitude leave 2017 mess in 2017.
I have said it before and I will say it again 2016 was the darkest, depressing, and stressful year of my life. I went through a painful breakup that took foreverrrrrrrrrrr to get over, my job was not what I expected, I was negative about everything and anything and felt like I was a horrible Christian and God was done with me. When it seemed like I was on the verge of getting better or trying to be positive, pain just kept coming my way. Who was to blame? Me! Attitude is everything. When you have a messed up attitude it affects your outcome in life. The biggest issue that I allowed to have so much power and control over me was my ex. It was difficult for me as a Christian woman to let go and allow God to have control, but for some silly reason I let a man have control. I vowed not to start the new year off getting in contact with my ex. I prayed and prayed, and I promised myself that I was not going to call him, text him, and just to let him go. Now I know your probably wondering why am I talking about my ex once again. If you haven’t notice my blog is based on my faith and how I struggle with be a Christian, fear, judgement, guilt, love, and heartbreak. I allowed my ex to be my life and dictate everything in it. I know there are other women who can relate. If you are in a toxic relationship with a man who feels comfortable disrespecting you, never wants to be around, only calls when he wants something, and consistently criticizes you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE leave him in 2017. You can not be a new you and start over fresh if u continue to hang on and bring in people who weigh you down and yes, your ex will weigh you down. Because I brought my ex in 2017 I could not focus on my goals the way I wanted to, I was thinking about him way too much, and was getting annoyed and irritated with everything and everyone. He was sucking me dry once again. I eventually cut ALL ties off with him (stopped texting, calling, and emailing) and focused solely on me. Your ex and even toxic friends have no place in your life in 2018.
Now being a new you does take time. It will not happen overnight. Start off with a POSITIVE attitude. See with me I tend to complain and be negative about almost anything. I didn’t like getting up for work, sitting in traffic, and people at my job. I was allowing my negativity to ruin my happiness. I didn’t realize at the time all the complaining I was doing was showing God how ungrateful I was. I didn’t appreciate ALL of my blessings. Here I am alive, great health, have a job which some people don’t and a good car to get to my job while some people have to ride the bus, train, or find other means of transportation. I was also allowing people at my job to take away my shine by being annoyed with them. God allowed me to see another year period! God allowed me to open my eyes! God allowed me to wake up in my bed and not in the hospital and I had the nerve to be ungrateful??? Shame on me. I had to check myself real quick. Leave the bad attitude, complaining, and negativity in 2017. Praise God for blessing you to see another year!
Go out there and start making some things happen! Start accomplishing some goals. Go back to school, write a book, eat healthier, get fit, or start a business. I had to tell myself if I want to be successful I have to make it happen. I’m always reading and hearing about other people’s success stories of how they made it or what they did, that can be me too if I put in the effort, stay disciplined, and be determined. Most importantly, as a Christian woman I want God to continue working on me. I know that once I allow God to have control over my life and trust Him that He will show up and show out. It is up to you if you want 2018 to be your year to start over. Change your attitude, leave negativity behind, and allow God to have control.